Post No. 2,903 - Recovering from a corporate life - Episode 35: Worth of existence

For anyone distressed by anything in this post, or for any other reason considering seeking support, resources are available in Australia here, here, and here. In other nations, you will have to do an Internet search using terms such as “mental health support - <your nation>” (which, for instance, may lead to this, this, and this, in the USA, or this, this, and this, in France [biased towards English-language - my apologies]), or perhaps try https://www.befrienders.org/.  

Posts in this series are now listed at https://gnwmythr.blogspot.com/p/recovering-from-corporate-life.html. 

PS - expect these to be eddited fairly often. Writing these is part of the healing process, and will bring up more insights,etc.

I recently decided to let go of some of my blogging activities (to quite an extent, in response to some life changes), and wrote about that here.

Some of that blogging I did because, without it, I would have felt that my life - my existence - could not have been justified, but I also did that because it was a genuinely important goal to me - and still is: I still want to make the world a better place.

But, as I mentioned in   “Post No. 2,897 - Recovering from a corporate “life” - Episode 34: burnout” (11^th October, 2024)   , I have started re-reading Dr Devon Price’s   “Laziness Does Not Exist”   https://www.amazon.com.au/Laziness-Does-Exist-Devon-Price-ebook/dp/B08BZXM734/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0   , and have realised more fully how my attitudes towards busy-ness and feeling that my existence had to be justified was influenced by unhealthy white Anglo-Saxon protestant values. 

Consider the following, from his above mentioned book: 

“I know a lot of people like me. People who work overtime, never turning down additional work for fear of disappointing their boss. They’re available to friends and loved ones twenty-four seven, providing an unending stream of support and advice. They care about dozens and dozens of social issues yet always feel guilty about not doing “enough” to address them, because there simply aren’t enough hours in the day.” 

“People like this—people like me—are doing everything society has taught us we have to do if we want to be virtuous and deserving of respect.” 

“Most of us spend the majority of our days feeling tired, overwhelmed, and disappointed in ourselves, certain we’ve come up short. No matter how much we’ve accomplished or how hard we’ve worked, we never believe we’ve done enough to feel satisfied or at peace.”

I had to recognise that flaw, and learn how to address it, but not only in my day job areas of life, but also the activities I care about personally and consider personally important - such as this blog. 

There is also the genuine needs being met by those activities to consider, but as the Activist Witch  recently pointed out, if you overdo things the choir you are part of may permanently lose a voice, but if you slow down or pause, the choir may have a quieter voice or a pause from your voice, but you will still be a part of that.

Blessed be.

I am writing this series in the hope that it will contribute to a better understanding - or at least better research into the effects of - the so-called developed world’s economic systems - which are based on the world-destroying amathia of perpetual growth, and patriarchal oligarchical capitalism expressed as often expressed corporatism and neoliberalism.

 

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Note that I am cutting back on aspects of my posts - see here. 

(Gnwmythr is pronounced new-MYTH-ear)   

Remember: we generally need to be more human being rather than human doing, to mind our Mӕgan, and to acknowledge that all misgendering is an act of active transphobia/transmisia that puts trans+ lives at risk & accept that all insistence on the use of “trans” as a descriptor comes with commensurate use of “cis” as a descriptor to prevent “othering” (just as binary gendered [men’s and women’s] sporting teams are either both given the gender descriptor, or neither).

Copyright © Kayleen White 2007-2024     NO AI   I do not consent to any machine learning aka Artificial Intelligence (AI), generative AI, large language model, machine learning, chatbot, or other automated analysis, generative process, or replication program to reproduce, mimic, remix, summarise, or otherwise  replicate any part of this post or other posts on this blog via any means. Typo’s may be inserrted deliberately to demonstrate this is not an AI product.     Otherwise, fair and reasonable use is accepted under Creative Commons 4.0 on an Attribution-ShareAlike basis https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0/    

 

 

 

Post No. 2,902 - Random thoughts

I mentioned here that I have been finding my colour  healing more effective: noticeably, the use of silver light to heal my lungs - including the use of these etheric objects (sigh) to both help deliver that energy in, and remove and shake out what is perceived by me as dust. 

It will be interesting to see if more specific examples of the use of colour are developed and made in coming decades. 

And various groups, some perhaps already existing, will be crucial to that dissemination ... 

... and on groups, I consider the guidance that is around for such groups (particularly on being inclusive and trauma informed - to make spaces that are safe for all, including trans, gender diverse, and nonbinary [TGDNB] ) is fantastic.

However, there are a few areas where I think they could do better. 

Firstly, deliberately and consciously addressing the issue of spiritual bypassing.

Secondly, although related to the first, the importance of making sure people are politically progressive. 

There is no place in any spiritual group for someone who victim blames the poor, or minimises or downplays the existence and effects of “systemic” racism or other forms of bigotry, or promotes individualism at the expense of the whole - there is place for a balanced combination of individualism (which ensures we can be whatever we wish/need/“should” be, whether that is focused on self, the whole, or a combination of both - and enforced conformity is also an egregious wrong), and a world which enables that - hence the progressive politics, which is a way of fulfilling the Wiradjuri saying yindyamara winhanganya - to live well (including mutually respectfully) in a world that is worth living well in. *

And thirdly, there is also no place in any spiritual group for someone who seeks to acquire, lives by the notion of, or flaunts social status. 

As I age, I am more and more inclined towards the realisation that the quest for social status is one of the greater evils that plagues this world - not spectacularly evil, perhaps, in the same way that war is, but so endemic that it adds up to a major blot on our copybook in many, many areas of life - I am scent its stench behind a lot of misogyny, transphobia, and enforcement of hierarchical structures. 

Oh, and on transphobia, I’ve come across: 

• some people who get their nose out of joint because they weren’t personally of the self discovery journey of TGDNB people: tough - TGDNB people have a right to assess such matters in privacy, which is the best way to do so; and 

• others who think trans people should be othered by a special term (i.e., “trans-”) but not not cisgender people, as “they’re the ones who are changing.” Setting aside the human  rights  dangers of being othered, actually, no, “they” are not - they are expressing their true self without the enforced conformity demands of politically regressive society.
  To put that another way, from the field of neurodivergence, “they” are no longer masking - and I use that with a touch of irony, as one of the nastiest transphobes I have come across in the last year was a neurodiverse person who hypocritically attacked TGDNB people using exactly the same arguments used to attack neurodiverse people.
  Either both descriptors are used, or neither.
  

On autistic masking (see here, here, here, here, here, here, here, and here), from a spiritual perspective, one of the major problems those who enforce or fail to notice masking (of any type) are likely (in my experience) to have is superficiality - an inability to see (sense) beyond the surface to the essence. 

This can potentially include people who are attracted to TGDNB people before transition, but not after: why did they not notice the mask of someone they were attracted to? 

Or were they only attracted to the “meat sack”, and not the person? 

There can be genuine sexuality and other relationship issues associated with this, but there should, in most cases, be enough of an attraction to the person to at least continue a friendship, in my opinion. 

And anyone who thinks there is no pressure to conform or mask is amathiac, and I question their inclusion in spiritual groups - unless they are working at overcoming that flaw, and flawed people must be admitted to groups or there will be no members at all, so the question is: what is the basis for admission? 

I would suggest a genuine desire to attempt to change is a suitable basis ...

 * PS - it could be argued (has been, on YouTube, actually - I think here] that a failure to be progressive enough to return to Tattoine and free the slaves was one of the reasons Anakin Skywalker lost his way ...

If you appreciated this post, please consider promoting it - there are some links below, and there’s also Instagram. 

Note that I am cutting back on aspects of my posts - see here. 

(Gnwmythr is pronounced new-MYTH-ear)  

Remember: we generally need to be more human being rather than human doing, to mind our Mӕgan, and to acknowledge that all misgendering is an act of active transphobia/transmisia that puts trans+ lives at risk & accept that all insistence on the use of “trans” as a descriptor comes with commensurate use of “cis” as a descriptor to prevent “othering” (just as binary gendered [men’s and women’s] sporting teams are either both given the gender descriptor, or neither).

Copyright © Kayleen White 2007-2024     NO AI   I do not consent to any machine learning aka Artificial Intelligence (AI), generative AI, large language model, machine learning, chatbot, or other automated analysis, generative process, or replication program to reproduce, mimic, remix, summarise, or otherwise  replicate any part of this post or other posts on this blog via any means. Typo’s may be inserrted deliberately to demonstrate this is not an AI product.     Otherwise, fair and reasonable use is accepted under Creative Commons 4.0 on an Attribution-ShareAlike basis https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0/  

 

Post No. 2,901 - Reduction in blogging

For personal reasons, this blog will be cut back for the next few months, and possibly on hold for some weeks. The PWRs will also be based on my intuition, rather than a formal dowsing.

I have also formally wound up my political blog, so as to have more time and energy for other areas of life (particularly spiritual and health).

PS - I feel like I have retired now ... 

PPS - this showing in a few ways, including more, deeper, more refreshing sleep, and increased effectiveness of my colour healing work on myself (it feels a little like leaving a battlefield for a hospital). Hopefully it is fairly obvious that this is not resulting from the removal of the time & energy I put into my political blogging, but the intensity and amount of psychic work that went in to that activity: mentioning something in a blog may take 20 minutes of work, but then have triggered work - amongst other similar clearing/healing/etc work - for several days - and that work is still being done, but by others without my contribution (see this poem), and I am pleased by how effective they are being. 

PPS - in June I reached a total of one million views across all my blogs, of which ~673,000 were on this blog. This blog is now up to 736,000 views - another ~60,000 in four months. After the next few months I hope to do enough blogging (and I won't be completely stopping in the interim) to earn a million views on this blog.

Remember: we generally need to be more human being rather than human doing, to mind our Mӕgan, and to acknowledge that all misgendering is an act of active transphobia/transmisia that puts trans+ lives at risk & accept that all insistence on the use of “trans” as a descriptor comes with commensurate use of “cis” as a descriptor to prevent “othering” (just as binary gendered [men’s and women’s] sporting teams are either both given the gender descriptor, or neither).

Copyright © Kayleen White 2007-2024     NO AI   I do not consent to any machine learning aka Artificial Intelligence (AI), generative AI, large language model, machine learning, chatbot, or other automated analysis, generative process, or replication program to reproduce, mimic, remix, summarise, or otherwise  replicate any part of this post or other posts on this blog via any means. Typo’s may be inserrted deliberately to demonstrate this is not an AI product.     Otherwise, fair and reasonable use is accepted under Creative Commons 4.0 on an Attribution-ShareAlike basis https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0/